It's been a while

It's really been a while since I've typed up my thoughts, & since writing has always that therapeutic notion to it...

People have been saying my way of speech has changed. Maybe its influence from school, maybe its a phase of growing up. But honestly I feel I need to grow up. Faced with people who brought different experiences I encountered, different feelings I have towards them I think I need some maturation in my thinking.

On another note, things are picking up, I'm meeting more people in school which ultimately is a great thing :-) Lessons are a 3 day week for now, which I definitely am grateful for. Groupmates are a great bunch, thank you very much for that too :-) Hope days would turn out as fun as ever, since its always been claimed by many, that Uni days are the most fun :-) I'm keeping my hopes up for that!

But I'm missing many other people. Things will work out with everyone's initiative to keep the friendship going and I'm undoubtedly keeping my faith in this area!

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Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and a richness to life that nothing else can bring.
Oscar Wilde

:-)

For the sake of..

I hate this feeling of churning out words for the sake of writing.
If a passage or a text is produced, there should be a reasoning behind the production. For expressing one's emotions, for clarifying one's views. I cannot imagine one's fingers flying around the keyboard in a flurry, but yet, the text that is as such created bears no significant meaning to that person. No emotions carried, no thought born.
However, this nagging feeling is overcoming me now. I feel like I'm writing the essay for the sake of writing one. This is also probably why it never exceeds the first paragraph...................................................................................................................


Unhappy vibes be gone! Please grant me some attachment to my work now.
No matter how lowly I feel of my writing skills or how unconfident I ever am................. Let me just produce some quality work.

Excitement got me over my head

I take it all back, the excitement I felt exactly 10 seconds ago.
I thought I could enjoy myself more. I thought. Well I thought wrong.
There are so many things I have to tell my friends, but we're all having differing schedules which makes things even harder. This makes the missing even harder to avoid.


Just admit if you are wrong, it doesn't take much to say that you are. Learning from mistakes is also a virtue. But i guess you'll never understand this will you.

In comes the new

And the old stays put.

Why don't this sentence fulfill its meaning?
It feels like things are drifting apart. To accessorize my feelings, it simply means that my world is falling apart.

I hope I'll do well in school, It's time to wake up my idea. I feel like I'm skimming through school day by day, without a care. When there's like millions of particles of work chasing me down the street, breathing up my neck. 8 weeks down, I don't really understand what's going around me anyways. It's time to get serious.

It's like there's something bugging me deep inside but I just can't refute. But it's getting on my nerves.

How can friends be so rude to friends? "Friends" itself being an ambiguity.

First time I'm feeling these.

Fear, and Amusement at my own retardness.
It's time I wake up of my little bubble.
It's funny how these 2 emotions could actually arise simultaneously, but when it does it gives the most eerie feeling ever.
I always feel so out of sorts nowadays, Like I cannot focus on one thing :/

Agh the irony of things

It never was easy

And it isn't getting any easier now.

Taking a five-r from schoolwork. I underestimated the difficulty of churning out 900 Chinese characters. Since this is an assignment, it contributes to my overall grades. Thus, I should do this to almost perfect standard. However, Nothing of such standard is appearing in my paper :/ :/ :/ :/ :/ :/ :/

There are so much information that I can't seem to understand now, my brain seems to be lagging behind people for these 5 weeks. Gotta catch it back somehow but I don't know the method to. I just cant focus.

School work is piling! Quizzes are a-coming :(
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A perk-me-up for the week, Friday :) Hope that it comes true <3

Reality has sunken in

I'm finally back in school, and I'm in for the 4th week already.

Didn't time just fly by?

Just 3 weeks in and I'm swamped in readings, tutorial qns, un-understood lecture notes and now projects. School has been treating me well, with just 3 full days and the rest being 1 lesson each. Feeling kind of no life at the moment hope this feeling just passes me by.

Time to make new friends and make the most of Uni life right? :)

Its pretty amazing experiencing a whole new world.

I'm missing my free time and all but all is not lost :):)

Optimism and drive!